My piano teacher gave me all these pieces such as Schubert and Chopin
Ballard and Winter Wind etude, revolutionary and Moonlight but
recently my teacher is beginning to give up on me (well, and I also
want to quit being her student too). I started learning with her since
february, it started out well, but gradually i lost confidence in
myself because. And half the time I don't even know what my teacher is
saying, so at least I'm getting a new teacher now. But I actually
kinda wanna quit the piano lessons.
But I love composing romantic music so much, especially more of the
dark romance. I love composing pieces that, when I listen to them,
bring out the stories in my head and play out in animation. Because, I
also love drawing and painting and animating things by hand. But most
especially, I have so many intricate stories, fantasy stories, war
stories, romance stories hundreds that I thought of from pure
imagination that I want to express through music and I want to draw it
out. I mean, I can improvise a beautiful romantic piece in one try and
that would be a complete piece if I write it down. I can improvise a
different one rite after, cuz I love romantic music so much and play a
lot that I know all the patterns to make it beautiful (this is going a
little off topic, sorry). Playing something that can touch my heart
seems to be the only thing that inspires me to play and keep playing.
I don't know why, but when my piano teacher comes and gives me
classes, I just cant help but *not care*. My brain seems to
automatically shut down in her lesson, and I just nod and say yes when
she says something, but maybe its just cuz I don't like her. But I
think another reason that I don't like a majority 98% of pieces is
just that they aren't very touching (to me at least). And for some
reason I can't learn the piece, because when I listen to it, it
doesn't make me tear.... ~_~
So ya, even though some of my compositions have a jazzy feel to it, I
don't like jazz. And I already figured out all the "keys" into
composing a romantic piece, the different switches like
And there's also SATs and school and summer classes and drawing and
guitar so I'm not a fully devoted pianist who practices 6 hours a day,
at most 2
Any advice/help on that?
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